The Orphan Spirit

I’ve been listening to some fantastic recordings on “The Spiritual Life of the Writer” taught by Allen Arnold at the 2014 Mount Hermon Christian Writers’ Conference. Allen’s messages have really revived my heart. So much of what we are told as writers focuses on what we need to be doing to achieve success. Allen’s talks focused on remembering Who is really in control and placing our full trust in God instead of on our own resources and abilities.

One of the topics Allen touched on which I found very convicting was what he termed “The Orphan Spirit.” A person with this outlook is like a kid who knows just what he wants for Christmas. He goes out and buys all his own presents, wraps them up himself and puts them under the tree. That way, he ensures that he won’t be disappointed. He also ensures that he will never fully experience the mystery, joy, and wonder of Christmas morning.

I’m pierced to the heart when I recognize how prone I am to this temptation. Instead of waiting with eager anticipation for God to reveal the amazing things He has in store,  I try to work out contingency plans, just in case He decides not to answer my prayers.  I’m far too prone to figure out ways to get what I think I need that don’t require God’s intervention, or even His involvement. Instead of walking humbly with my God, I attempt to make an end-run around Him.

Lord, forgive me for my self-sufficiency. Help me to stop acting like an orphan and to start trusting in your goodness. Teach me to forsake my natural inclination to handle things on my own. Teach me to look to You with great expectations, trusting in Your goodness and reveling in the mystery of being Your daughter. Much Love, Your Little Girl

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Creative Fellowship

I’ve been listening to some recordings from the Mount Hermon Christian Writers’ Conference. During the conference, I didn’t get a chance to hear Allen Arnold’s messages on the Spiritual Life of the Writer, but I’m really benefitting from them now.

One of Allen’s key points is that God invites writers into what he calls a creative fellowship. When we write, we join with the Great Creator in the creative process. Like a father teaching his young daughter to dance, we get to join with God in this wild and wonderful adventure of writing.

Allen emphasized that once writers recognize this, we never have to create alone again. We don’t have to stare down a blinking cursor with fear in our hearts and not a clue of what to do next. We can turn to God and call on Him to lead us, to join with us in the process of story telling.

I realized as I listened to Allen’s message that the times when I have struggled most with my writing have been those times when I tried to force something, instead of allowing God to lead the process. Striving is fruitless, but resting in God and letting Him lead and inspire can be the most exciting experience in the world.

So as I finish the latest draft of my current work in progress, instead of asking myself, “What do I want to do next?” or “What do I think will sell?” this will be my prayer:

“Dear Abba, thank you so much for bringing me along on this amazing adventure! What shall we write together next?”

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The Wisdom and Generosity of God

“For the Lord God is a sun and shield; The Lord gives grace and glory; No good thing does He withhold from those who walk uprightly.” Psalm 84:11

This verse jumped out at me during my quiet time yesterday. When it comes to my writing, it’s so easy for me to believe that God is withholding good things from me.

I think every writer struggles with this.  I mean, what could be better than a book contract? Isn’t God withholding something good when He allows us to go through round after round of rejection?

And then there is the question of timing. God may indeed be planning to provide that coveted contract, but why must it be so long in coming?

It’s easy for my heart to agree with the enemy’s lie that, “God is holding out on you!” That’s really the same lie he’s been telling humanity since Eden. The Serpent deceived Adam and Eve into believing that the forbidden fruit was something they couldn’t live without. In truth, it was something that would destroy their souls.

If I am going to believe that God doesn’t withhold good things from His children, I have to reframe my thinking when it comes to His time-table. I have to regard the things about which He has said, “Not yet,” as fruit that isn’t quite ripe. One day it may be a good thing, and at that point God will say, “Yes.” Until that time, I need to agree with Him that what I desire is not yet among the many good things that He desires for me.

I must learn to trust in the character of God. He is not miserly or stingy. He is generous and He offers abundant life. And a deeper trust in Him may very well be one of the good things He wants to build into my heart through the seasons of waiting.

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Phoenix Rattler Writing Contest–Last Day to Enter!

Attention Writers!  Today is your last chance to enter The Phoenix Rattler writing contest. The contest is sponsored by Christian Writers of the West, the Arizona Chapter of American Christian Fiction Writers. This year, we have some great final round judges lined up, all of whom are well know agents and editors. The entry fee is just $25. The contest closes for submissions on August 29 at 5:00pm, Arizona time. For complete contest details go to http://www.christianwritersofthewest.com/contest-info.html

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Writing Contest–Two Days to Go!

Attention Writers! The Phoenix Rattler is a writing contest sponsored by Christian Writers of the West, the Arizona Chapter of American Christian Fiction Writers. This year, we have some great final round judges lined up, all of whom are well know agents and editors. The entry fee is just $25 and the contest is open for submissions this Friday, August 29, 2014. For complete contest details go to http://www.christianwritersofthewest.com/contest-info.html

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Writing Contest–One Week to Go!

Attention Writers! The Phoenix Rattler is a writing contest sponsored by Christian Writers of the West, the Arizona Chapter of American Christian Fiction Writers. This year, we have some great final round judges lined up, all of whom are well know agents and editors. The entry fee is just $25 and the contest is open for submissions until next Friday, August 29, 2014. For complete contest details go to http://www.christianwritersofthewest.com/contest-info.html

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Patrick’s Castrated Christianity

One of the saddest characters in The Fault in our Stars is Patrick, the support group leader. As a survivor of testicular cancer, Patrick attempts to offer hope and encouragement to the young patients in his support group. Hazel, the narrator, repeatedly refers to him as “ball-less” Patrick. I believe he symbolizes a particular brand of what I’d like to call “castrated Christianity.”

It’s not hard to see why Hazel is fed up with Patrick and his insipid platitudes. He leads his young charges in serenity prayers, and admonishes them all to live their “best life today,” but he does nothing to help them really connect with God. He has confused what is the literal basement of a church building for the “literal heart of Jesus.” He remains silent about the subject of sin, a malady far more deadly than cancer, for which Christ’s blood is the only cure. To the dying, he offers only stale cookies and weak lemonade, not the bread and wine of holy communion.

Those facing cancer, or any form of profound suffering, don’t need more platitudes or positive affirmations. They need to know that God is real and personal, not distant or indifferent to their needs. They need to know that He cares about them as individuals, that He wants to walk with them through their suffering.

None of us gets out of this world alive. That’s why Jesus came: to demonstrate the true love and compassion of God, to rescue us from our broken world, to reconcile us to God through His own death, to prove that He Himself is the resurrection and the life, the only cure for our terminal affliction.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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The Fault in Our Thinking

This week, I read The Fault in our Stars by John Green. My young adult daughter recommended it to me, insisting that I really needed to read the book before watching the movie. I must admit, that the book is extremely well written. Green wrenches you into the mind and heart of a teenage girl with cancer and her unique perspective on the world.

The thing I found most disheartening about The Fault in Our Stars was the hopelessness of Green’s naturalistic world view. In the book, suffering is senseless. For the young protagonists of Green’s story, there is no heroism to be found in battling cancer, because cancer isn’t evil. It just exists. For Green, the human aspiration to avoid oblivion by leaving some sort of lasting mark on the universe is ultimately futile.

Yet even the author must sense that there is more to the story. If cancer is not evil, then why do we challenge the reality that young people’s lives are snuffed out by it? Why should that even bother us?

The truth is, we live in a world that is fundamentally broken, marred by disease and death. But we are only able to recognize this truth because it was not always so. The world as God created it was “very good.” Human sin and rebellion against our creator broke the world. We cry out at the injustice of children dying of cancer only because we have a sense of justice imparted to us from a just God who is above and beyond the natural world.

As a cancer survivor, I’m profoundly grateful that I did not have to walk through my own battle with stage three melanoma in the kind of universe Green envisions. I knew that what was happening to me was a consequence of living in a broken world. I knew that my battle against cancer was not meaningless, that my life had eternal value no matter how long or short it was. I knew that God understood and would give me comfort in my darkest hours. I knew that he felt my pain.

Most importantly, I had the assurance that if God caused my life to come to an early end, he would not abandon my loved ones, but would walk with them through their grief. My death would not rip them to pieces like the shrapnel from an exploding grenade, because God would cause all things to work together for good in their lives (Romans 8:28). I would not leave them in a state of hopeless grief, but in the loving hands of a good God, the same God who sacrificed his only Son to bring eternal hope and healing to a broken world.

John Green, the fault is not in our stars, but in our view of the universe.

 

 

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Writing Contest–The Phoenix Rattler

Attention Writers! The Phoenix Rattler is a writing contest sponsored by Christian Writers of the West, the Arizona Chapter of American Christian Fiction Writers. This year, we have some great final round judges lined up, all of whom are well know agents and editors. The entry fee is just $25 and the contest is open for submissions from August 1 through August 29, 2014. For complete contest details go to http://www.christianwritersofthewest.com/contest-info.html

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Writing Contest Opens Today!

Attention Writers! The Phoenix Rattler is a writing contest sponsored by Christian Writers of the West, the Arizona Chapter of American Christian Fiction Writers. This year, we have some great final round judges lined up, all of whom are well know agents and editors. The entry fee is just $25 and the contest opens for submissions today, August 1, 2014. For complete contest details go to http://www.christianwritersofthewest.com/contest-info.html

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