The Slaughter of the Innocents

Matthew 2:16-18
“Then when Herod saw that he had been tricked by the magi, he became very enraged, and sent and slew all the male children who were in Bethlehem and in all its environs, from two years old and under, according to the time from which he had ascertained from the magi. Then that which was spoken through Jeremiah the prophet was fulfilled, saying,
A voice was heard in Ramah, weeping and great mourning, Rachel weeping for her children; and she refused to be comforted, because they were no more.”

It’s as much a part of the Christmas story as the visit of the Magi, yet you will probably never see this gory scene depicted on a Christmas card. We have whitewashed over this horrific detail of the Christmas story, and in so doing, we have forgotten something essential about why Christ came.

We live in a world at war. Cosmic forces of evil have been inspiring inhuman acts of violence from the time that Cain killed Able. But God is not sitting idly by, watching with a sense of detachment or resignation. He sent His own Son to be born into a world where babies are senselessly murdered by enraged despots because He intended to do away with such pain and suffering forever.

Through Christ’s crucifixion and resurrection, God triumphed over the devil and over death, making a way for human beings to be reconciled to Himself and giving us an eternal hope stronger than the grave. Those who put their faith in Christ can have the certain hope of a life forever in the presence of God, where He will one day wipe away every tear from our eyes and forever restore to us loved ones who have been torn from our embrace by death. Christ said, “I am the resurrection and the life; he who believes in Me shall live even if he dies, and everyone who lives and believes in Me shall never die.” John 11:25-26a

In this tragic time, we would do well to remember that this truly is the reason for the season.

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A Heart Like Mary’s–Faith

After the angel tells Mary that her relative Elizabeth is pregnant with John the Baptist, she goes immediately to the hill country of Judah to visit her.

As soon as Mary’s greeting reaches her ears, Elizabeth’s baby leaps in her womb, and she knows at once that Mary is carrying the Christ child. Then Elizabeth says, “And blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord.”

This is really significant because it is a direct contrast to how Elizabeth’s husband, Zacharias, responded when he was visited by Gabriel six months prior and told that his wife would bear him a son. After getting such an amazing message from the angel, Zacharias asked, “How shall I know this for certain? For I am an old man and my wife is advanced in years.”

As a consequence for his lack of faith, the angel tells him he will be unable to speak until the baby is born.

It’s easy for me to say I have faith, but I tend to keep on questioning, like Zacharias. After years of barrenness, it was hard for him to believe his wife really would have a child.

After years of rejection, I can so easily slip into the frame of mind that assumes God has forgotten about me. That He doesn’t really have a good plan for my writing and my future. That He hasn’t heard my prayers.

Instead, I know He wants me to have faith like Mary’s. Faith that doesn’t doubt His goodness, or question His ability to bring about a future that is better than anything I could ask or think. Faith that hears tell of good news and starts walking that direction. Faith that not only prays for rain, but prepares the fields to receive it.

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A Heart Like Mary’s–Humble Obedience

 I recently attended a restoration prayer  workshop where a team of people asked the Lord to reveal my original design. Because we are all God’s unique creations, each one of us reflects particular facets of His glory. One thing that surprised me was the revelation that I was intended to have a heart like Mary’s.

During this Advent season, I have spent a lot of time thinking about Mary and all the aspects of her heart that are revealed in the Christmas story. One of the most evident and important is her humble obedience.

It would have been easy for her to argue with the angel about God’s plans for her life–“Hey, could you let God know that His timing here stinks? I’ve got a wedding to plan. Plus, traveling across the country in my third trimester of pregnancy is not part of my ideal birth plan.”

But Mary didn’t argue. She didn’t demand that God provide explanations or contingency plans. She simply said, “Behold, the bondslave of the Lord. Be it done to me according to your word.”

For me, it’s too easy to want to know all of the why’s, when’s and wherefore’s in my life. I struggle to trust that God truly knows better than I do.  Instead of expecting God to provide me with all the answers, I need to learn to humble myself before Him and obey the things He asks of me, one day at a time, like Mary did.

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Not Amanda, but Grace

Like many women, I struggle with my body image. When I don’t like what I see in the mirror, and I blame myself for it because of the things I’ve put in my mouth, I feel discouraged and unlovable.

In my head, I know that God looks on the heart and not on the outward appearance, but I somehow feel absolutely certain that the rest of the world is judging this book by its cover.

I was talking to God about this struggle, telling Him about my discouragement, about the fact that I don’t feel worthy to be loved. As I was thinking about that concept, I remembered that the literal meaning of the name Amanda in Latin is “worthy to be loved.”

I realized that Amanda is not, and has never been, God’s name for me. He sees me as Grace, one who has received His “unmerited favor.” He doesn’t love me because of my worthiness. He loves me because of His incredible, self-sacrificing grace. Because His love for me is based upon His love and mercy, I need to love and accept myself no matter how I look, because I know I am always treasured in the eyes of God.

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Working The Polls

 There is nothing like working the polls to put you in touch with all that is best and worst about Americans, though interacting with my fellow citizens was the last thing on my mind when I signed up to serve as a board worker for the primary election a few years ago. When I learned I could earn a hundred bucks for a single day’s work, I seized the chance. Since there is never money to spare in my budget, I had no doubt I could find ways to use the extra cash.

In the black pre-dawn of Election Morning, I stuffed all the food I needed for the day into a cooler and hopped into my car. My battery had been acting up for days. I turned the key and the engine reluctantly coughed to life. The dashboard display read January 1. Not a good sign, considering the fact that it was late August. I prayed that the car would start one more time to get me home at the end of the day.

It was 5:30 a.m. when I reported for duty at the recreation center of the tiny mobile home park that served as our polling place. Ours was one of three different precincts crammed into the same room, something bound to cause confusion, even though we posted a map to help the voters figure out where they were supposed to go

The polls opened promptly at six o’clock, and people began straggling in to exercise that most sacrosanct of American civil liberties, the right to vote. Once things started rolling, our jobs were fairly straightforward. Most of the voters were congenial and business-like, even so ridiculously early in the morning. We checked their IDs, then gave them their ballots. Once they were finished, we explained how to feed their ballots into the Insight machine, and then sent them on their way sporting “I voted today” stickers.

The job wasn’t rocket science, and voter turn out was low, so we had plenty of time to chat. The most experienced members of our team were Becky and her sister RoJane, though health problems had kept Becky away for several years. She recounted the tales of her knee replacement surgeries and double mastectomy. Becky saw herself not as a cancer survivor, but as an overcomer. She said she enjoyed raising cockatiels and had rescued several baby hummingbirds.

The youngest member of our team was Miryam. She was a beautiful, black high-schooler, dressed in blue jeans and a Muslim headscarf. She was there to get credit in her government class. She had enjoyed playing softball, until she found herself on a team where she was clearly outclassed and ran the risk of getting hurt. At that point, she didn’t find it fun anymore. She said she enjoyed reciting poetry at speech competitions.

Miryam was stationed near the door, trying to intercept the voters and help direct them to the correct precincts’ tables, when this guy walked into the clubhouse. He was old and sinewy with an unhealthy tan and a mop of unruly white hair. One look at our young Muslim girl and he became loud and indignant.

“I’ve never had to flip a coin to figure out where I was supposed to vote before!” he exclaimed. “I’ve been voting here for years.”

Miryam, with her downcast doe’s eyes, attempted to show him the precinct map, but he became increasingly obnoxious. Soon, two older poll workers tried to intervene. I could understand the man’s frustration, but he acted as though they were all there to give him a hard time. By the tone of his voice, I guessed he believed he was being funny. In reality he was making an ass of himself.

Finally, he was sent to my table. I put on my “happy waitress dealing with tipsy customer” voice, intentionally brightening my tone as I said, “If you’ll just show me your ID, sir, we’ll see if we can’t find you over here.”

He imparted a few more smart remarks as I checked his driver’s license against the voter rolls and sent him down the table to get his ballot.

Before going off to vote, he made a crack about his T-shirt, which featured a pro-American symbol and sentiment. “Am I still allowed to be in here wearing this?” he asked.

Of course you are, I thought. We just wish you’d shut up.

When he finally finished voting and departed with his sticker, every poll worker in the room breathed a sigh of relief.

At the end of the day, RoJane took the memory cartridge from our Insight machine to election headquarters. As the rest of us went through our checklists and packed up, I mentioned to Becky that I was worried about my battery.

“RoJane can give you a jump as soon as she comes back,” she said.

 When I got to my car, the starter emitted only impotent clicks. I trotted back toward the clubhouse, intercepting RoJane in the parking lot just as she returned. She drove me back to the side street where I had parked.

“I don’t have jumper cables,” she said. “They’re in Becky’s car.”

Just then, an elderly woman, hearing the noise from RoJane’s engine, poked her head out of the trailer across the street.

“You wouldn’t happen to have any jumper cables, would you?” I asked.

“Oh, sure,” she replied. “I’ll send my husband right out with them.”

In five minutes, the old man stood between my open hood and RoJane’s. He hooked up his cables, and I jumped into my car. I turned the key and the motor growled to life.

“Thank you so much,” I said to both of them. I slammed the hood and drove off into the night, grateful for the kindness of strangers, and for a story to tell as I pondered the unforeseen blessings of a hard day’s work in this odd yet wonderful place I call my home.

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One Sweet Dream Came True Today

After months of careful writing, editing and revising, after laboring long hours to proof read and re-submit the corrected files and the cover art, after all the blood, sweat and tears…the copies of Sarah’s Laughter were delivered to my doorstep today.

When I ordered the paperback copies of my book, the listed delivery date wasn’t until November. I had hoped and prayed that the books would be here in time for me to sell them at our church’s annual craft boutique this weekend, but I had to say, “Okay, Lord. The timing here is in your hands, but please, could you, would you get the books here in time?”

He’s answered that prayer with a “Yes!” I am pleased and excited to announce that I plan to be selling and autographing books tomorrow between about 3:00pm and 7:30pm at Faith Church of the Valley, 2125 E. Chandler Blvd, Chandler, AZ 85225.

I look forward to sharing Sarah’s amazing story with readers who will be blessed by it.

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God’s Promises

A few weeks ago, our pastor preached a sermon on prayer. He told the story of a Native American chief who permitted the transcontinental railroad to be built across his lands. In exchange, he was given a free pass to ride any place the railroad could take him as often as he wanted to travel. But the chief never used that pass. Instead, he wore it around his neck like a piece of jewelry, never truly claiming the fullness of the great gift he’d been offered.

Our pastor made the point that we too often treat God’s promises that way. We seldom pray His promises back to Him, believing that He will really do what He’s said He would. Instead we turn His promises into keepsakes, pretty words to recite or inscribe on wall plaques, when we should be persistently and confidently imploring Him in faith to do all that He has promised. 

So how does this apply to my life and my writing? I mean, God doesn’t promise any place in the Bible that I will get a publishing contract for my novel in the near future (though I know I’d love that).

The promise I feel most compelled to pray is found in I Peter 5:6-7, “Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, casting all your anxiety upon Him, because He cares for you.”

I don’t need to fret about building a platform, or getting my name known. Instead, I need to learn what it means to humble myself under His mighty hand and to give Him all my worries, confident in the knowledge that He will “exalt me at the proper time,” and that He cares for me.

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Creating a “Brand”

There is much discussion among authors these days about creating a “brand,” which is basically a phrase or slogan that characterizes what you write and why you write it. When I was thinking about what mine ought to be, I had an interesting challenge because I primarily write in two very different genres: speculative fiction and biblical fiction.

As I was pondering this, I realized that there are certain commonalities in my approach to both genres and that is what inspired me to come up with my brand: “A Fresh Voice for Timeless Truths.”

One of the things I enjoy most about speculative fiction is the freedom it gives me to explore timeless truths in new, and unexpected contexts. That is part of why much of my speculative fiction is allegorical.

The plotlines of biblical fiction come from scripture, but my approach attempts to bring a fresh perspective to these very familiar stories. I want readers to hear the voices of the biblical characters, to get inside their hearts and minds and experience them as real people with real hopes, fears and dreams, just like our own.

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New Website!

Inspired by a great talk on creating good author websites at my ACFW meeting this past Saturday, I have been working hard with a friend (thanks, Gabrielle) to give my website a fresh, new look. Let me know what you think of it.

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The Heart of Great Fiction

The heart of all great fiction, the thing which pumps lifeblood through the best stories of every genre, is courage. The characters who make a lasting impact on our souls are the ones who do not run from the conflicts … Continue reading

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