Facing my Fears

I’m getting ready to launch an Indiegogo campaign in February to fund my book, A Wife of Valor: Your Strategic Importance in God’s Battle Plan. This book is very dear to my heart. I’ve been working on it for several years, pouring the story of my own journey with God onto the page. I’ve prayed and wept over it. I’ve revised and rewritten it, screwed up the courage to pitch it to agents and submit it to publishers, and grappled with disappointment when they rejected it. This book means a lot to me.

As I look toward the new horizon of independently publishing A Wife of Valor, a host of fears bubble up in my soul. I believe that one of the best ways to conquer fear is to face it head on, so here goes:

  • Fear of Failure– What if I attempt this thing, only to fall short of my goal? What if this door to publishing closes, too?
  • Fear of Insignificance– What if I succeed in publishing the book, but it makes no difference to anyone? What if it is read only by a handful of my closest friends, who say nice things, but don’t bother to recommend it to anybody?
  • Fear of Being Judged– I reveal some very personal stuff in this book. How will knowing these things impact the view others have of me?
  • Fear of Offending– Much of my book’s message is politically incorrect, to put it mildly. How will friends, colleagues, and family members who don’t share my world view feel about me if they read it?

Do I have the courage to face these fears? To lay them in the hands of God, and say “Thy will be done”? Only by God’s grace. I have to believe that He has a purpose for this book, and He will accomplish it, even if His plan doesn’t match my expectations. I just have to hang on and keep putting one foot in front of the other, trusting Him to make my path straight. I guess that’s the adventure of living by faith.

 

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One Response to Facing my Fears

  1. Sheryl Kelly says:

    I love your honesty. And your evaluation is correct – only by God’s strengthening and grace will this happen. He is the “audience of One” that we need to please, regardless of any other responses. I face the same fears. Thank you for putting this so plainly.

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