Welcome, Earthborn Brother Sneak Peek

The crowd funding campaign for Welcome, Earthborn Brother is now in it’s third week. Here’s a sneak peek at the novel, for all of you who are looking forward to it’s release:

WELCOME, EARTHBORN BROTHER

Chapter 1:

Ninety-eight, ninety-nine, one hundred. Ayden raised his head from his arms and scanned the kids’ library in search of his friend, Sage. “How come I never get to hide?” he muttered, as he peered up and down each row of the short shelves filled with picture books. “I always have to be It!”

The children’s section still had plenty of books with real pages that you could actually touch. At eleven years of age, Ayden was a little old for picture books, but he still loved the bright illustrations that stayed put, so you could really examine them, unlike the animated pictures in most of the latest e-books. He liked the feel of the paper under his fingertips. He even liked their musty smell.

He stopped for a moment to examine the new display in the virtual aquarium before moving on. The holographic “tank” formed a cylindrical column several meters in diameter that stretched from floor to ceiling. The display changed periodically to feature different types of fish.

Last month, he had seen sleek leopard sharks gliding silently about the bottom of the tank while a school of rays flew through the water, flapping bat-like fins. Before that, the virtual tank had been teeming with colorful trigger fish. But today, it held three-dimensional images of creatures unlike any Ayden had ever seen.

They had large dark eyes with a mass of tentacles in front, and a delicate, rippling membrane that encircled their oblong bodies. They swam about or remained stationary in the water by means of this strange translucent “fin.”

The weirdest thing about them was their color. Waves of alternating hues washed over them in rhythm. When two of them came close to one another, the bigger one flashed a new pattern and the smaller one moved away. It almost looked like they were communicating through the dancing colors of their skin.

Ayden walked around the display, his eyes glued to the mesmerizing creatures, until he came to the information screen at the aquarium’s base.

“European Common Cuttlefish,” the sign read.

He stood staring for almost a minute before remembering that he was supposed to be searching for Sage. She wasn’t anywhere in the kids’ section, so he headed for the stairs.

Ayden climbed up to the main floor and peered around the front desk, ducking low to stay out of the sour-faced librarian’s field of vision. The last time she’d caught them playing hide and seek, she snarled and snapped like an angry pit bull. They’d had to spend the rest of the afternoon banished from all the upper floors and confined to the children’s library on the lowest level.

Trying to look nonchalant, Ayden sauntered over to the upholstered armchairs clustered near the big picture window that overlooked the street, just to the right of the library entrance. He carefully checked behind each one, then turned to the adjoining snack bar area. Walking past the line of barstools that flanked the counter, he peeked behind the automated café machine, with its brightly colored menu screens, but his friend was nowhere to be found.

He trudged up yet another flight of stairs and surveyed the room, finally coming to a sitting area where two sofas and several chairs were arranged. Noticing a slight movement under one of the sofas, he crouched down and darted forward, grabbing for a shoe before it disappeared into the dark recess under the couch.

“Gotcha!” he proclaimed.

A disheveled Sage crawled out. She straightened her red and yellow uniform tie, smoothed her rumpled school blouse, stark white against her warm mocha skin, and tried to push several strands of unruly brown hair back into the knot of tight curls at the top of her head. She plopped down on one of the chairs.

“Now, you’re It,” said Ayden.

“We don’t have time to play again. It’s already after five.”

“How come we always quit playing before I get to hide?”

Sage sneezed loudly. “I had no idea there would be so many dust bunnies under there.”

“You didn’t answer my question.”

“Come on, Ayden. I’m really hungry. Let’s go get something to eat.”

“Fine. I’ll race you.”

Sage squealed, hurrying to catch up with Ayden, who was nearly halfway down the flight of stairs. They almost tripped over one another while rushing down to the main lobby. Laughing and breathless, they stumbled from the staircase to the little café area near the front doors.

“You got any money?” Sage asked as they surveyed the menu screens.

Ayden fished a plastic card out of his backpack. “Not much.”

“I’m broke until Grandma reloads my card with this week’s allowance.”

“How ’bout pretzels?”

“That sounds good.”

Ayden pressed the console screen to indicate his selection. He inserted his cash card, and paid for the snack. A panel dilated on the countertop above the purchase console and a small bag of pretzels rose to the surface.

Ayden grabbed the bag. “Why does the food always look twice as big up on the menu?”

He followed Sage to the other end of the bar and climbed up on the stool beside hers. Ripping open the bag, he offered her a handful of pretzels.

After popping one in his own mouth, he asked the question that had been bugging him all afternoon. “How come whenever we play hide and seek, I’m always It?”

“We’re out of time,” Sage hedged. “You don’t want to be hiding when your mom comes, do you?”

“I’m not just talking about today. Every time lately, I have to look for you. How come you never let me hide?”

Sage took a deep breath. “This is gonna sound stupid, but I’m afraid I’ll lose you.”

“Why?”

“Have you ever had déjà vu?”

“I don’t even know what that is.”

“It’s the feeling that you’ve experienced something before. Like you remember having done it already. I have it a lot. Only sometimes, things happen that I know I’ve seen before in my dreams.”

“Weird!” Ayden munched on a pretzel, his brow furrowing. “When you have the dream, can you tell that it’s going to come true?”

“No. It seems like a normal dream to me until I start experiencing it in real life,” she explained. “Like the other day; Ms. Harris told us our book reports wouldn’t be due until next Friday. I could remember hearing her say those exact words in a dream.” She leaned forward, her bright, golden-brown eyes wide, and whispered, “Sometimes I wonder if I might be psychic.”

“More like psychotic,” Ayden smirked. Sage punched him in the arm.

“Ow!” he whined, rubbing his bicep.

“You had it coming.” Sage grinned and reached into the bag for another pretzel.

“I don’t get what this has to do with why I’m always It.”

Sage dropped her gaze. “Because of this dream I had. I was searching for you everywhere, but you had completely disappeared. It was really scary.”

“And you’re afraid it might come true?”

Sage shrugged. “I don’t know.”

“But you never know a dream is going to come true until it’s really happening, right?”

She nodded.

“So, I’d say the fact that you’re already worried means it’s not really going to happen. It wasn’t a premo-whatchamacallit.”

“A premonition?”

“Yeah. It was probably just a normal dream.”

“I guess.”

“I’ll tell you one dream I had that I wish would come true; I’m playing soccer, and it’s a really close game. The score is tied, but I kick the winning goal right before time runs out.”

“Cool!”

“That’s not the really good part. While everybody is cheering and giving me high fives, my dad walks up.”

“Your dad?”

“Yeah. He runs onto the field and throws his arms around me and says, ‘I’m so proud of you, Ayden!’ Then he hoists me up on his shoulders and carries me off the field.”

“But Ayden, you’ve never met your dad. Have you even seen a picture of him?”

“No. My mom doesn’t have any.”

“Then how do you know this dude in your dream was really your dad?”

“I just knew, okay? It was a dream, for crying out loud!”

“Hey, I’m only asking.” Sage sucked the salt off of another pretzel. “You think about him a lot, don’t you?”

“Yeah. I wonder where he is…what he’s like…if he ever thinks about me…”

Sage just shook her head.

“What?” Ayden demanded.

“When are you gonna learn to be thankful for what you’ve got? I mean, your mom loves you. She takes good care of you. Why isn’t that enough?”

Ayden shrugged and looked away. He didn’t really expect Sage to understand. She thought that her Grandma Naomi was all the family she needed. Her mother, Samantha, was so messed up, Sage considered it a blessing that she only turned up every once in a while. As for her father, Sage speculated that not even Samantha was sure of where he was, or who he was.

“What if you met your dad and he turned out to be a royal jerk?” Sage persisted.

“Look, forget it, okay?” Ayden peered into the bottom of the bag. “There’s two left. You want one?”

Sage reached in and grabbed a pretzel. Ayden shoved the last one into his own mouth.

“So,” he said, crunching noisily, “next time we play hide and seek, do I get to hide first?”

“Sure.” Sage smiled.

The big glass doors of the lobby slid open with a whoosh, and Sage’s grandma, Naomi Adams, walked in. She wore a long coat with a bright red transit badge pinned to the lapel. A triangular mask of silver and white covered her nose and mouth. She pulled the respirator mask down around her chin. “Come on, Sage. Get your stuff. We need to get going if we’re going to make it home before we have to catch the train to Ashbridge.”

Sage wrinkled her nose. “We’ve got to visit my Great-grandma in the nursing home this weekend,” she explained. She hopped down from the stool and pulled on her windbreaker. Fishing her own respirator mask out of the pocket, she slung her satchel over her shoulder and waved. “See ya Monday.”

“See ya.” Ayden slid off of his barstool and stuffed his hands into his pockets. He watched Sage and Ms. Adams slip their masks up over their faces and walk out the front doors.

He checked the time on his wrist phone: 5:30 p.m. Settling into one of the chairs near the front window, he rummaged in his backpack for his tablet computer. While he opened the file for his language homework, he scanned the crowds passing by outside for any sign of his mom.

She was always easy for him to spot. The feature that made her stand out in a crowd was her hair. She wore it short, about chin length, in wavy layers, and it was almost completely gray. People constantly told her that she ought to color her hair, but Ayden was secretly glad that she never listened. He had always thought his mother was beautiful, and he didn’t want her to change.

Ayden stared out the window at the moving sea of faces for several minutes, but didn’t see her, so he turned his attention to his grammar homework.

“Circle the subject and underline the verb in the following sentences,” the instructions read.

He scrolled down the page trying to determine how many of these he’d have to do. With a resigned sigh, he got to work.

After he’d finished the last one, he checked his watch: 6:05. He shut down his tablet, slung his backpack over one shoulder, and went downstairs to the kids’ library in search of something to read.

He browsed through the e-book titles on one of the catalogue kiosks until he found a book about the history of space flight. It looked interesting, so he downloaded it onto his tablet, returned to his seat by the window and started to read. He cruised through about four chapters before checking the time again: 6:45.

He was surprised his mom hadn’t called him. She often ran a little late, but he always heard from her if it was going to be more than an hour. Ayden unsnapped the earpiece from his wrist phone, inserted it into his ear and then dialed his mom’s number.

The phone rang once, twice, then three times. With a click, her voice recited a greeting, “Hello, this is Thesta Livingstone with New World Consulting. I’m unable to take your call at this time, but if you leave a message, I will get back to you.”

“Hi, Mom. It’s me. I was wondering how much longer it’s gonna be until you come to pick me up. Give me a call, okay?”

He went back to his book, but this time it didn’t hold his attention. Lines formed at the check-out kiosks near the front desk. Everyone must be in a hurry to finish up at the library and head home for supper.

Shifting in his seat, Ayden tried to ignore the grumbling in his own stomach and continue reading. After about two pages, he checked his watch: 7:08.

With a worried frown, he called his mom again, only to be greeted by the infuriatingly calm tones of her pre-recorded message. “Hello, this is Thesta Livingstone…”

He wiggled his foot in frustration. “Hey, Mom, where are you? Call me!”

Out the front window, Ayden saw the street lights coming on. He stood up and started pacing between the reference desk and the refreshment bar.

He phoned her again, holding his breath while he counted the rings, and then heard, “Hello, this is Thesta Livingstone….” He hung up, not bothering to leave a message. His watch read 7:33.

Something was wrong. His mother wouldn’t abandon him at the library. What if she’d gotten mugged, or been in a train wreck? His mom might be lying unconscious in an emergency room somewhere, while the doctors called her home number trying to contact her next of kin. Should he risk walking home all alone?

There were millions of strangers on the streets, any of whom might be a mugger or a kidnapper. Sitting by himself in the bright shelter of the public library under the constant supervision of security cameras and library staff was one thing. Walking alone down Umberton’s crowded streets in the dark was a different story, but he was getting desperate.

If he had his transit badge, he could take a public tram. Since he usually walked home with his mom, he didn’t always carry it with him. He rifled through his backpack in search of it. No luck. If he had any money, he might have called a cab, but cabs were expensive, and he’d totally depleted his cash card at the snack bar.

He checked the time: 7:45. The library would be closing in another fifteen minutes. He couldn’t just stay here.

He called her one last time. The recorded greeting seemed longer every time he had to sit through it, and the beep more annoying.

“Hi, Mom. This is Ayden. It’s nearly eight, and I don’t know where you are, so I’m heading for home.” The thought of walking all that way alone in the dark made him feel kind of shaky. “I love you,” he added. “I hope everything’s okay.”

He slipped on his windbreaker, fastened his respirator securely over his face, then bent down and retied his school shoes. He slung his pack onto his back, making sure to tighten down the straps. The big glass doors parted before him. Taking a deep breath, he stepped out of the library into the street.

Copyright © 2015, Rebecca D. Bruner

 

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Welcome, Earthborn Brother Limited First Edition

Welcome, Earthborn Brother

Welcome, Earthborn Brother

The Limited First Edition of  Welcome, Earthborn Brother will be available from now until May 4, 2015 exclusively to supporters of the Indiegogo crowd funding campaign. This will be the only edition of the novel to feature the original cover art by contest winner Anna Fischer, along with special, supplemental discussion questions for book groups and educators.

Thanks to the generous support of donors, we are already 40% funded. Don’t pass up your opportunity to help make a story that is both exciting and uplifting available to young readers everywhere. Please check it out, contribute if you can, and help spread the word to others.

Indiegogo Campaign: http://igg.me/at/welcome-earthborn-brother

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3, 2, 1, Blast Off!

The crowd funding campaign for Welcome, Earthborn Brother has launched! This is a great opportunity to help make a story that is both exciting and uplifting available to young readers everywhere. Please check it out, contribute if you can, and help spread the word to others.

Indiegogo Campaign: http://igg.me/at/welcome-earthborn-brother

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And the Winner Is…

I’m pleased to announce the winner of the cover art contest for Welcome, Earthborn Brother. Congratulations to Anna Fischer, whose composition will be used for the cover of the exclusive first edition of the novel, available only to backers of the Indiegogo campaign.  Here’s the cover featuring her artwork:

Welcome, Earthborn Brother

Welcome, Earthborn Brother

Stay tuned for more details on the Indiegogo campaign for Welcome, Earthborn Brother, which will run throughout he m month of April. Thanks!

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Crowd Funding for Indie Authors

Independently published authors face two major hurdles to success: financing and book promotion. Professional quality publishing packages for print books can cost thousands of dollars, and without a marketing plan, your book is still likely to become just another title floating through cyberspace on the endless tides of Amazon.com. Crowd funding provides authors with the means to both raise capital to underwrite the costs of publishing, and at the same time, build an audience by raising awareness for their book projects.

What is Crowd Funding?

Crowd funding is a way for groups of people to sponsor projects and products that they feel strongly about. In exchange for their pledges of financial support, crowd funding investors are offered “Perks.” A perk is any product, service, or benefit that the supporter will receive in exchange for the money they pledge.

If you stop to think about it, non-profit organizations, including local churches, have always been subsidized by the donations of people who feel strongly about their mission. The same basic principle operates in crowd funding, except that the donors receive tangible perks in exchange for the money they invest in a project.

Kickstarter and Indigogo

Two of the most widely known crowd funding platforms are Kickstarter (www.kickstarter.com) and Indiegogo (www.indigogo.com). These platforms have slightly different emphases. Kickstarter focuses on raising money for creative projects. Indiegogo has a broader focus, and is therefore less exclusive about what kinds of projects they will take on.

If you are a fiction writer, and you have no plans to crowd fund anything other than fiction, Kickstarter may be right for you. If you plan on crowd funding any non-fiction projects, Indiegogo may be the better choice.

With both Kickstarter and Indiegogo, setting up a campaign is free. However, these sites obviously have to make money to stay in business. They do that by taking a percentage of the money raised through the crowd funding campaigns hosted on their websites (this can be anywhere from 4-10%). It costs nothing to set up a campaign, but once the money comes in, the host site will collect their share of the donations. Learn more about the specific costs associated with Kickstarter and Indiegogo by visiting their websites.

Fixed Funding vs. Flexible Funding

Another significant difference between these two major crowdfunding platforms is that Kickstarter only allows for fixed funding campaigns, while Indiegogo also allows for flexible funding campaigns. A fixed funding campaign is an all or nothing proposition. Your supporters pledge money toward your project, but if you do not meet your goal, you don’t receive any of that money. Your supporters pay nothing, and you get nothing. End of story.

With a flexible funding campaign, you receive all the money pledged toward your project, whether or not you meet your funding goal. However, for campaigns that fall short of their funding targets, Indigogo charges higher fees.

The main advantage of a fixed funding campaign is the motivation it gives your supporters. If they want your book and they understand that it won’t be published unless you get enough pledges to reach your goal, they will feel a greater sense of urgency about getting their friends to support the project, too. This may be a little easier if you are writing non-fiction, because people may be quite passionate about your topic, even if they have not yet read your book. It’s somewhat more difficult to inspire the same kind of passion in fans who haven’t yet read your fiction.

Resources for Learning More

I learned about crowd funding for authors when I attended an evening session presented by Thomas Umstadt Jr. from Author Media at the Mount Hermon Christian Writers Conference last spring. He explained the basics of how to use crowd funding platforms like Kickstarter or Indiegogo to finance independent publishing projects.

Since then, Author Media has produced “The Ultimate Crowd Funding Course for Authors” http://www.authormedia.com/products/ultimate-crowdfunding-course-authors/. In this course, Thomas Umstadt Jr. and author Mary Demuth discuss all the phases of a crowd funding campaign, drawing heavily on the lessons they learned through Mary’s highly successful campaign for her book, Not Marked: Finding Hope and Healing after Sexual Abuse. Mary raised about two hundred and fifty percent of her original $10,000 goal and pre-sold approximately seven hundred copies of her book in the course of her crowd funding campaign. I highly recommend this very helpful and comprehensive resource. After listening to it, I felt very well prepared to design a crowd funding campaign of my own.

My own experience

Right now, I am working to set up a crowd funding campaign for Welcome, Earthborn Brother, my science fiction novel for young readers. I’m planning to launch this campaign on Indiegogo by the end of March. I made the decision to do this for two principle reasons:

  1. To raise money— Writing is my day job. Publishing independently puts all the costs of book production on the author’s shoulders. I simply don’t have the money for all those essential up-front expenses, like professional editing, layout, and cover design. I can’t afford to spend so much getting Welcome, Earthborn Brother published that I have to sell thousands of copies just to recoup my initial investment.
  2. To promote my book—I see crowd funding as a great marketing tool. Unlike independent film makers or visual artists, authors have it pretty easy when it comes to figuring out what perks to offer our supporters. We can offer them copies of our books! In exchange for different donation levels, I plan to offer copies of my ebook, my print book, and autographed copies of my book. Because nearly everyone who invests in the crowd funding campaign will receive the novel in exchange for their support, I will be enlarging my reader base automatically. I’m hoping people will get so excited about Welcome, Earthborn Brother that they will spread the word to their own friends and social networks, encouraging them to invest in this campaign, too. I think it’s a fantastic promotional strategy.

 

Why Indiegogo?

I decided to use Indiegogo for two main reasons:

  1. The first reason is that I also write non-fiction. If I should decide down the road to crowd fund a non-fiction book, I know that Kickstarter is not open to projects of that kind. In some ways, this campaign will be an opportunity for me to learn the ropes of crowd funding through Indiegogo so that if I need to create a bigger campaign in the future, I will understand how it all works.
  2. The second reason is that Indiegogo allows for both fixed funding and flexible funding campaigns. Since this will be my first experience with crowd funding a book, I’m not completely certain what to expect. That’s why I wanted the option of creating a flexible funding campaign.

I’m quite excited to see how all of this will work out. I’m planning to run this campaign throughout April, 2015. To follow progress of this venture as it unfolds, check back here in the coming weeks.

 

 

 

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Free Cover Art Contest Ends in Twelve Days!

Attention, Science Fiction Artists!

I’m holding a cover art contest for Welcome, Earthborn Brother, my science-fiction novel for young readers. I plan to run a crowd funding campaign through Indiegogo.com to help raise the money to cover the costs of publishing. But before I can crowd fund my book, I need one thing: an illustration for the cover.

This is where you come in! The Cover Art Contest is completely FREE to enter. If you are under 18 years of age, you MUST have permission from a parent or guardian to enter the contest. The winner will receive five (5) FREE softbound copies of my novel featuring his or her artwork on the cover.

All artwork submitted to the contest must be:

  • Age appropriate for readers 8 years and up
  • Your own original work
  • Previously unpublished
  • Family-friendly/clean

The contest closes March 16, 2015

TO RECEIVE MORE INFORMATION, CLICK HERE!

 

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Free Cover Art Contest Closes March 16

Attention, Science Fiction Artists!

I’m holding a cover art contest for Welcome, Earthborn Brother, my science-fiction novel for young readers. I plan to run a crowd funding campaign through Indiegogo.com to help raise the money to cover the costs of publishing. But before I can crowd fund my book, I need one thing: an illustration for the cover.

This is where you come in! The Cover Art Contest is completely FREE to enter. If you are under 18 years of age, you MUST have permission from a parent or guardian to enter the contest. The winner will receive five (5) FREE softbound copies of my novel featuring his or her artwork on the cover.

All artwork submitted to the contest must be:

  • Age appropriate for readers 8 years and up
  • Your own original work
  • Previously unpublished
  • Family-friendly/clean

Looking for inspiration? Check out my Welcome, Earthborn Brother Inspirations board on Pintrest. If you’d like to read the beginning of the novel, click on the sample chapters tab and enter this password: Irista

The contest closes March 16, 2015

TO RECEIVE MORE INFORMATION, CLICK HERE!

 

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Advice for Young Writers–My Top Three

Today, I had the chance to visit with a group of high school students in a creative writing class. They asked me questions about how I got started writing, my writing process, and submitting work for publication.

At the end of our time together, the teacher asked me to sum up any final words of wisdom for the students. I had three pieces of advice, which are really helpful for beginning writers of any age:

  1. Finish Stuff. There are millions of wanna-be writers out there with half finished manuscripts on their hard drives. Many remain in the perpetual rut of re-writing the first fifty pages of their stories. If you want to get published, first concentrate on getting to “The End.” After you have a complete draft, then you can work on polishing the story and making the writing beautiful.
  2. Recognize that Publishing Professionals Don’t Get Paid to Read Your Stuff. Student writers are used to turning in papers to teachers who actually get paid to read every word they have written. The grammar may be horrible, the spelling may stink, the formatting may be completely wrong.  The teacher still has to read the paper and award it a grade, whether it’s an A or an F. By contrast, Agents and Editors don’t get paid to read your work. They get paid to find stories that will sell. They come to your submission looking for any excuse to stop reading, because that allows them to move through their slush pile faster. Don’t give them any stupid reasons to stop reading, like not following their posted submission guidelines.
  3. You’ve Got to Love It. If you are interested in writing because you think it will make you rich or famous, you are wasting your time. Very few published novelists, even best-selling authors who are household names, ever make it into that category. If you are writing because you love to write, then the time and effort will be worth it. The journey is far more important than the destination, even if you only have the chance to share that journey with a handful of delighted readers.

 

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Love is a Verb

Valentine’s Day is coming, and in this season when we celebrate romance, it can be easy to lose sight of what true love is really all about. Roses, chocolates, romantic date nights, sentimental cards, and passionate kisses: these are the images continually put forward to symbolize the essence of true love.

But I’d like to challenge you to think bigger. Ever since I tore the ligament in my knee and had to have surgery, my husband, Stewart, has been going above and beyond to demonstrate his love for me. At first, he brought me ice packs to stop the swelling and kept me stocked with pain medication. He laid out clothes for me every night, because I couldn’t fetch them for myself. He helped me get dressed each morning (no easy feat when one of your legs doesn’t bend). He still helps me get in and out of the shower, and even assists with washing my hair.

Since I’m not allowed to put much weight on my right foot, I’ve been largely confined to a recliner. My husband has taken over all the housework, laundry, and dishes. When we go grocery shopping, he drops me off as close to the store entrance as possible, then finds a parking place while I hobble in with my walker and seat myself in a motorized shopping cart. He makes his way with me throughout the store, grabbing the many items that are beyond my reach.

I know he must be growing weary of having to take care of all these things, just as I grow weary of needing to be taken care of, yet he does not complain. He does what must be done, laying down his life for me day by day, as he has so many times throughout our marriage. That’s true love in action. Serving another without complaint, even when that person is incapable of offering much to you in return. Love isn’t glamorous, it’s enduring and faithful.

Stewart, thank you so much for loving me so well.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. I Corinthians 13:4-8a 

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The Body Image Blues

I will be speaking this Saturday at Faith Church of the Valley for Heart of Faith’s Women’s Equipping Day. For all those who will be wondering, “Why is she giving this presentation sitting down?” or “What’s with the big, black brace on her leg?” I’ve decided to repost my tale of woe:

It was New Year’s Eve, and I was feeling sorry for myself. I had every reason to be happy: my kids were all home for winter break, we’d had a great time going to a movie that day as a family, the clutter of Christmas was getting cleared away, and I’d been invited to a party that evening put on by good friends.

Yet, I was not counting my blessings. Instead, I was wallowing in discontentment, triggered by the unsettling time capsule I had uncovered. While rearranging the storage room to make space for the bounty of Christmas, I had come across a small box of outdated Weight Watchers materials.

I should have just found a new shelf for it, or thrown it in the recycling (it was from 2010, after all). Instead, I took it into the living room, and looked through it. Visions of my former body danced in my head as I longed for the days when I was only ten pounds away from my original goal weight instead of forty.

I knew I had gained a few pounds over Christmas, and I was dreading having to run the gauntlet of snacks and goodies that I expected to confront me at the New Year’s Eve party. As I carried the box back to the storage room, my heart was filled with brooding, discontentment, and shame.

Back in the storage room, I stepped onto an upended cinder block with my right foot in an attempt to return the box to the high shelf where I’d found it. The cinder block toppled, sending me reeling. I found myself sprawled across the concrete floor, unable to get up, with an excruciating pain in my right knee.

Fortunately, my family was home. They quickly responded to my cries for help and got me transferred to the couch and then on to Urgent Care. To make a long story short, I had torn the ligament in my knee. I had to have complete ACL reconstruction just a last week.

Before my accident, I felt bad about being out of shape. Now, I just wish I could go out and walk around the block without the aid of a walker. In focusing on the past, I’d completely failed to give thanks for the blessings of the present.

I recognize now that the former body I was coveting had become an idol that God wants me to cast aside in the coming year. Even as I deal with the frustrations of limited mobility, He wants me to focus on contentment and giving thanks for every day.

So here goes: I’m thankful for the ability to get around without pain. I’m thankful for my loving husband, who goes above and beyond to care for me. I’m thankful for my mom, who came to stay with me when the rest of my family had to go on a mission trip. I’m thankful for all those friends and neighbors who have gone out of their way to drive me places, and provide meals since my surgery. I’m thankful for motorized shopping carts. I’m thankful for my laptop computer so I can write from my recliner. I’m thankful for the internet which allows me to keep in touch even when I  can’t get out.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who battles the post-Christmas body image blues. If the holidays have left you feeling discouraged or discontent with your body, ask God to help you embrace the way He’s made you. If you are into New Year’s resolutions, here’s an idea: make a  habit of giving thanks for the body you have right now and all the good things it does for you, regardless of its size. May 2015 be a year in which we focus more on having  hearts that are “in the trim,” rather than trim figures.

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